What to title this one? Nothing captures the feeling. Last night Sam and I went to a Mission's Conference and at the end, a huge globe was placed at the front of the sanctuary. There was an invitation for people to come place their hand on the part of the world that God has placed on their heart. I went forward and covered Cameroon with my palm. I couldn't hear the singing, couldn't focus on the prayer, all I could think was, "Lord, please get me there. Just please get me there. Just get me there, Lord.". The floodgates of emotion were opened, emotions that God so graciously has let me repress for the last year in order to cope with this overwhelming burden to reach the lost in Cameroon while not being able to BE THERE.
Let's be honest. You see pictures of the Danforth Christian Academy, of the Danforths enjoying Fall, of Sam at work, of Sawyer's inventions and Elaina's crafts. You don't see the ache, the sense of urgency that still exists in my heart... in Sam's heart. Yes, I am fully enjoying every moment in the here and now, a lesson that God took 7 long years to teach me. But the ache remains. Cameroon runs in my blood and burdens my heart. God alone can capture this heart and tame it for his purposes HERE AND NOW.